50 Things About Me

The whole point of this blog is for me to examine my life and try to make changes about things that I am not happy about. With that said I have created a list of 50 things about myself, some of them are very obvious others not so much. In fact I even surprised myself with some of them. So here goes:

1. I have many regrets in life, from career path to ending friendships, to things that I have said and done to people I love.
2. My favorite color is teal, like the Caribbean ocean
3. I love my dogs so much that when they die I don't know if I will ever be able to get another dog.
4. I can hold a grudge for way to long
5. I miss my best friend more than I can say
6. Loneliness is one of my biggest fears
7. Ever since seeing the horror that was the Sex and the City movie and haven't been able to watch the tv show and I don't think I will ever be able too again
8. I can lose track of time very easily looking at the bumper sticker and flair applications on facebook
9. I really think if I was thin I would be truly happy.
10. Finding and sharing new music is my favorite but most frustrating hobby
11. I wish that the show Friends was still on the air
12. I am terrified that McCain will be elected president
13. If I could have any super power I would be able to snap my fingers and be anywhere in the world. This way there would never be any distance between CJ and I
14. I feel like a murderer every time my fish die...or my snail :(
15. I wish I would travel more, but then I also love being at home.
16. My sense of smell is really heightened, it really is both a blessing and a curse
17. I am a fast typer
18. I think my husband is the most wonderful person in the world, but wish he would show others how great he is,and not be so unsure of himself.
19. I really think I have a learning disability when it comes to spell which makes me look unintelligent to others.
20. I am addicted to shopping, I really think I do most of it to fill a void in my life
21. I want to be a mom more than anything, but the reality of what I have to do for that to happens makes me not sure of what I want to do. This is my greatest struggle
22. I wish I was brave enough to be a performer
23. I wish exercising was something that I loved to do
24. Pedicures make me forget all of my problems, and so do massages
25. I don't think that any amount of money will ever let CJ and I catch up on ourselves
26. I love to read
27. Overcast dreary days are my favorite
28. I think my hair color is fabulous
29. I loath having the hiccups
30. I truly love my in-laws
31. Tylenol PM is the only way I can get myself to fall asleep, it actually is kind of a problem
32. I am a irrational fear of being attacked in my house by a stranger
33. Dark chocolate is my favorite
34. I wish I liked coffee
35. My favorite movie is the Love Letter, and Under the Tuscan Sun as much for the scenery as for the movie itself
36. Boys with guitars are my favorite...luckily I snagged myself one
37. I wish I had gotten better grades in school, because I know I could have
38. I do not like having my picture taken
39. I wish I could find a bar to hang out in that is all about just sitting and relaxing with friends, and listening to good music.
40. I want to be a great hostess but it stresses me out to much
41. I worry about my explosive personality, because it is getting worse not better
42. Autumn is my favorite time of year, I love the little nip in the air and the colorful trees
43. I HATE doing yard work
44. I am so afraid people will not think I am interesting
45. I want a Dyson vacuum more than anything
46. My worst childhood memory was having to go on the teacups by myself at Disney World
47. I am truly afraid that my husbands love for the military will make me lose him
48. I cry at the drop of a hat
49. I love spending time with myself in moderation
50. I obsessively make lists to help clear my head

Wow, that felt good. Hope you enjoy