God I just want to go to bed and sleep forever! I have been so tired and stressed the last few days. It all started when CJ found out that he has to wear a suit to his new job. That is fine, except for he only has one suit, and it has a hole in it. So on top of everything else we planned on doing this week, we had to go buy him clothes. I know I talked before about how I wanted CJ to get new clothes, but it is just easier for me to go and buy them and then make him wear them. He hates shopping and isn't very nice about the fact that we are out. We also could find anything that we liked, or if we liked it there was no pants that fit him, or jacket that fit him. Being tall and skinny isn't always a good thing when buying clothes. So to make a long rant short he has two nice suits now, and hopefully he will not need anymore. If he does God Help Me!!
We also decided this week to get our Dyson vaccum which I wasn't too excited about until I actually bought it yesterday. I have been wanting a Dyson forever, but the stress of trying to go buy it, and go shopping for clothes, and the grocery store, and eat dinner at some point, and watch The Office, and Grey's Anatomy all by 9:30pm when CJ leaves was very very overwheleming. I didn't even get home until 5:30 last night. BUT when we finally got home and CJ put together the Dyson and we used it, well the heavens opened and God smiled down on me. This Dyson is the coolest thing in the whole wide world. My carpet has had a very thick layer of dog hair on it from the day we moved into the house. I only vaccumed a 5ft section of the office and got so much hair up that I had to empty the canister. EWWWWWW, but so cool at the same time. I can't wait for everything to be clean at my house. It will be a glorious day!
I am off to Wichita tomorrow to get my bridesmaid dress made. We are leaving at 6am and hope to be home by midnight. Another long day is not what I need, but I will make it work.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Finally
CJ comes home tomorrow! He will only have been gone for two weeks, but god I missed him. So much happened while he was gone it was crazy. I turned 28, he got a new job, his brother left for Austria for four months. So much has happened in this past two weeks, I don't think I have ever had such a crazy two weeks. I am just relived that he will be home soon. He can change all the light bulbs that are burnt out that I can't reach, fix the table that I broke. Fix the garbage disposal that I also broke, and the drawer in our kitchen that you guest it....I broke. His honey-do list is super long, but I just want him home with me. I am going to pick him up at the airport late tomorrow night, this will be my third trip to the airport in two weeks and none of them were because I was going anywhere! I hope the day goes by fast.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I'm Lonely
CJ has been in Massachusetts for almost two weeks now. He is going to his five millionth army school. I miss him so much! I have been doing okay until tonight about being by myself. I had just made a nice dinner, and I was cutting into it and realized that I would be eating it all alone. I got extremely sad at that moment. I do not know what I will do when CJ gets deployed again, I just miss him too much. Looking back now I do not know how I manged to be by myself when he was deployed the first time. I could never be single and living by myself, because I get so lonely. Even the dogs are not keeping me company this time. It is only three more days until he is home but I want him home NOW!!!
Saturday, September 13, 2008
50 Things About Me
The whole point of this blog is for me to examine my life and try to make changes about things that I am not happy about. With that said I have created a list of 50 things about myself, some of them are very obvious others not so much. In fact I even surprised myself with some of them. So here goes:
1. I have many regrets in life, from career path to ending friendships, to things that I have said and done to people I love.
2. My favorite color is teal, like the Caribbean ocean
3. I love my dogs so much that when they die I don't know if I will ever be able to get another dog.
4. I can hold a grudge for way to long
5. I miss my best friend more than I can say
6. Loneliness is one of my biggest fears
7. Ever since seeing the horror that was the Sex and the City movie and haven't been able to watch the tv show and I don't think I will ever be able too again
8. I can lose track of time very easily looking at the bumper sticker and flair applications on facebook
9. I really think if I was thin I would be truly happy.
10. Finding and sharing new music is my favorite but most frustrating hobby
11. I wish that the show Friends was still on the air
12. I am terrified that McCain will be elected president
13. If I could have any super power I would be able to snap my fingers and be anywhere in the world. This way there would never be any distance between CJ and I
14. I feel like a murderer every time my fish die...or my snail :(
15. I wish I would travel more, but then I also love being at home.
16. My sense of smell is really heightened, it really is both a blessing and a curse
17. I am a fast typer
18. I think my husband is the most wonderful person in the world, but wish he would show others how great he is,and not be so unsure of himself.
19. I really think I have a learning disability when it comes to spell which makes me look unintelligent to others.
20. I am addicted to shopping, I really think I do most of it to fill a void in my life
21. I want to be a mom more than anything, but the reality of what I have to do for that to happens makes me not sure of what I want to do. This is my greatest struggle
22. I wish I was brave enough to be a performer
23. I wish exercising was something that I loved to do
24. Pedicures make me forget all of my problems, and so do massages
25. I don't think that any amount of money will ever let CJ and I catch up on ourselves
26. I love to read
27. Overcast dreary days are my favorite
28. I think my hair color is fabulous
29. I loath having the hiccups
30. I truly love my in-laws
31. Tylenol PM is the only way I can get myself to fall asleep, it actually is kind of a problem
32. I am a irrational fear of being attacked in my house by a stranger
33. Dark chocolate is my favorite
34. I wish I liked coffee
35. My favorite movie is the Love Letter, and Under the Tuscan Sun as much for the scenery as for the movie itself
36. Boys with guitars are my favorite...luckily I snagged myself one
37. I wish I had gotten better grades in school, because I know I could have
38. I do not like having my picture taken
39. I wish I could find a bar to hang out in that is all about just sitting and relaxing with friends, and listening to good music.
40. I want to be a great hostess but it stresses me out to much
41. I worry about my explosive personality, because it is getting worse not better
42. Autumn is my favorite time of year, I love the little nip in the air and the colorful trees
43. I HATE doing yard work
44. I am so afraid people will not think I am interesting
45. I want a Dyson vacuum more than anything
46. My worst childhood memory was having to go on the teacups by myself at Disney World
47. I am truly afraid that my husbands love for the military will make me lose him
48. I cry at the drop of a hat
49. I love spending time with myself in moderation
50. I obsessively make lists to help clear my head
Wow, that felt good. Hope you enjoy
1. I have many regrets in life, from career path to ending friendships, to things that I have said and done to people I love.
2. My favorite color is teal, like the Caribbean ocean
3. I love my dogs so much that when they die I don't know if I will ever be able to get another dog.
4. I can hold a grudge for way to long
5. I miss my best friend more than I can say
6. Loneliness is one of my biggest fears
7. Ever since seeing the horror that was the Sex and the City movie and haven't been able to watch the tv show and I don't think I will ever be able too again
8. I can lose track of time very easily looking at the bumper sticker and flair applications on facebook
9. I really think if I was thin I would be truly happy.
10. Finding and sharing new music is my favorite but most frustrating hobby
11. I wish that the show Friends was still on the air
12. I am terrified that McCain will be elected president
13. If I could have any super power I would be able to snap my fingers and be anywhere in the world. This way there would never be any distance between CJ and I
14. I feel like a murderer every time my fish die...or my snail :(
15. I wish I would travel more, but then I also love being at home.
16. My sense of smell is really heightened, it really is both a blessing and a curse
17. I am a fast typer
18. I think my husband is the most wonderful person in the world, but wish he would show others how great he is,and not be so unsure of himself.
19. I really think I have a learning disability when it comes to spell which makes me look unintelligent to others.
20. I am addicted to shopping, I really think I do most of it to fill a void in my life
21. I want to be a mom more than anything, but the reality of what I have to do for that to happens makes me not sure of what I want to do. This is my greatest struggle
22. I wish I was brave enough to be a performer
23. I wish exercising was something that I loved to do
24. Pedicures make me forget all of my problems, and so do massages
25. I don't think that any amount of money will ever let CJ and I catch up on ourselves
26. I love to read
27. Overcast dreary days are my favorite
28. I think my hair color is fabulous
29. I loath having the hiccups
30. I truly love my in-laws
31. Tylenol PM is the only way I can get myself to fall asleep, it actually is kind of a problem
32. I am a irrational fear of being attacked in my house by a stranger
33. Dark chocolate is my favorite
34. I wish I liked coffee
35. My favorite movie is the Love Letter, and Under the Tuscan Sun as much for the scenery as for the movie itself
36. Boys with guitars are my favorite...luckily I snagged myself one
37. I wish I had gotten better grades in school, because I know I could have
38. I do not like having my picture taken
39. I wish I could find a bar to hang out in that is all about just sitting and relaxing with friends, and listening to good music.
40. I want to be a great hostess but it stresses me out to much
41. I worry about my explosive personality, because it is getting worse not better
42. Autumn is my favorite time of year, I love the little nip in the air and the colorful trees
43. I HATE doing yard work
44. I am so afraid people will not think I am interesting
45. I want a Dyson vacuum more than anything
46. My worst childhood memory was having to go on the teacups by myself at Disney World
47. I am truly afraid that my husbands love for the military will make me lose him
48. I cry at the drop of a hat
49. I love spending time with myself in moderation
50. I obsessively make lists to help clear my head
Wow, that felt good. Hope you enjoy
Friday, September 12, 2008
CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES
My mother and I did our bi-annual shopping trip for my birthday last Sunday. The next trip will be for her birthday in April. I better start saving now!! I got two pairs of jeans, some underwear, four shirts, a sweater, dress, just about everything on my list for the last six months. There of course is always room for more. I only do these major shopping trips a couple of times a year and I always think my wardrobe is complete, but then I ALWAYS think of other stuff I have to have. I am a clothes horse, I like variety in my closet, I also get tired very easily of what I do have. It is all because my parents wouldn't buy me clothes when I was little. I am sure I am not totally remembering correctly but I only had a few shirts, and a couple of pairs of pants. It totally scarred me, so now I over compensate. Now I just need to find some nice shells to wear under cardigans and a few sweaters that I have. Oh and I need a pair of black shoes to wear in winter that have a slight heal so I don't walk on my pants, and nice brown sandals for summer. I think I could make a list of thirty more things that I want to get for my closet. It is a sickness I tell you! Now if I just could get CJ to agree to buy HIM new clothes....hmmmm
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Oh my what a week
I can't believe I made it through in one piece. This has been the most stressful week I have had in a very long time. Lauren's baby shower is over, and I have to say it was just wonderful. Everyone was so nice, and friendly, helpful, and happy for Lauren. I really think everyone mingled nicely, and the party games were a hit. I also got to catch up with a very good friend from college Meghan. She told us today that she is pregnant with her four child....yes that is right her FOURTH child. I am so happy for her, she and her husband are the best parents and their children are beautiful. CJ's mom came up for the shower, and she was the biggest help. Even though it was a long day it was very nice,but I am so so happy it is over.
CJ left for his army school this morning very early. I hate that he leaves me, but I know that it is something that he has to do. It does make me appreciate when he is around though. I haven't been able to make very much time for him the last few weeks, which has been very hard. I feel very guilty, because the time that we did get to spend together I was very stressed and distracted, and not the nicest person to be around. I guess it is true that you are the rudest to the ones you love, and I hate that I was that way to him. He is never like that to me, but then again we deal with stress very differently. I explode, he internalizes....very different styles but we work well together I guess. Anyway he left for his school, and I miss him. He is in Massachuettes for two weeks, and right now he is dealing with hurricane Hana. I am of course very worried, so much so that I told him to go to the bathroom and steal toilet paper so that if he is trapped in his building that he at least has some that no one else can use. That is what I would do if I was stuck somewhere like that. Anyway, I just want these two weeks to go by fast. I miss him so much and need him home with me. Plus I have to mow the lawn while he is gone, and I HATE doing it.
Tommorow I am going to go shopping for clothes the first time in a long long time. I am very excited. My mom and I are going, and that means she will buy me some stuff. I need to get to sleep soon so that I am refreshed for the day.
CJ left for his army school this morning very early. I hate that he leaves me, but I know that it is something that he has to do. It does make me appreciate when he is around though. I haven't been able to make very much time for him the last few weeks, which has been very hard. I feel very guilty, because the time that we did get to spend together I was very stressed and distracted, and not the nicest person to be around. I guess it is true that you are the rudest to the ones you love, and I hate that I was that way to him. He is never like that to me, but then again we deal with stress very differently. I explode, he internalizes....very different styles but we work well together I guess. Anyway he left for his school, and I miss him. He is in Massachuettes for two weeks, and right now he is dealing with hurricane Hana. I am of course very worried, so much so that I told him to go to the bathroom and steal toilet paper so that if he is trapped in his building that he at least has some that no one else can use. That is what I would do if I was stuck somewhere like that. Anyway, I just want these two weeks to go by fast. I miss him so much and need him home with me. Plus I have to mow the lawn while he is gone, and I HATE doing it.
Tommorow I am going to go shopping for clothes the first time in a long long time. I am very excited. My mom and I are going, and that means she will buy me some stuff. I need to get to sleep soon so that I am refreshed for the day.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Double Feature
Cj and I went to the drive-in last night to see Tropic Thunder and Step Brothers. We had the best time. I love spending time with Cj. I can honestly say that there is no one else that I would want to spend so much time with. He is just so awesome, fun, sweet and caring. I just love him so much.
Well both movies were so great. Step Brothers was my favorite, but Tropic Thunder was really good too. Tom Cruise was the best part of Tropic Thunder, he was totally making fun of himself and hollywood. It was Great. Later I am going to post my favorite lines from the movies, and beleive me there are a ton.
Well both movies were so great. Step Brothers was my favorite, but Tropic Thunder was really good too. Tom Cruise was the best part of Tropic Thunder, he was totally making fun of himself and hollywood. It was Great. Later I am going to post my favorite lines from the movies, and beleive me there are a ton.
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